It is not over until I say so.
I shall not give up until I am not ready to do so.
I shall not regret not giving up.
I shall do whatever it takes.
I shall forgive myself.
I shall sleep peacefully knowing I did my best.
Until then, I shall be hopeful.
Update: I kept saying to myself that I wouldn't/shouldn't do something all day long. And that it would ruin it all. I tried and tried harder. Spoke to friends, spoke a little more. Then, I said, screw it and sent out a mail I was meaning to. I deleted it. With crazy emotions out of the way, I wrote the email, again, now, calmly. I haven't got a reply yet, but I feel better.