Cutting loose.

When the guarded soul lets loose, there is a pandemonium that occurs inside. 

When emotions flow unrestrained, quite like the tears flowing down the cheeks, there is turmoil that occurs inside.

I thought 

of what I had - Nothing.

of what I didn't have - Everything.

of what I had a lost - A lot.

of people I had lost - A lot.

Some due to things beyond control - Mom. (13 yrs later, I still don't know how to handle it)

Some due to my craziness - I am sorry.

of those who used and abused.

of those I used and abused.

of how it never seems to end.

of the despair that it will truly never end.

of how, maybe it isn't too late to make amends.

of how, maybe it is too late.