Saturday, December 18, 2010

The way I know how.

Reading my blog post, a friend commented that I sounded tired. And yes, I am tired. The daily grind is awesome. I sleep as less as I can muster courage to do. I go out with friends and have fun till I can't take it anymore and slump down on my bed. But it is days like these, when the University is over, friends have been met over a casual cup of coffee, it is almost 1am and you are up, awake, with nothing to do.

It is in moments like these, that the stupid brain starts to work and memories come rushing back. Now, it isn't memory of a single person or a single moment, it is amalgamation of so many different things that I want to scream out loud. If I were to narrate my story to someone from the beginning to the end, I come across as such a vile person. But this has all been in the quest of one single thing : Happiness.

Unfortunately, it has always been MY happiness. I say to the butterfly that runs away from me, just as I cozy up to it sitting on my shoulder : No more.

I have had enough of running, tiring and then running again, only to be tired. Enough of the search for the horizon. I shall be happy where I am, now. It is hard not to think of what is to come, but I shall triumph. How I am not sure. I shall not slump into my old habits. I shall not make some calls that I shall truly regret, and if I do make them, I shall not regret.

I shall live, the way I know how to.

9 comments:

Scribbling Girl said...

Wish I could do same as u say....sigh we somehow aren't able to even if we want to.

krist0ph3r said...

lovely post! helped me realize that I'm not even pursuing happiness. just living a "meh" life. happiness does find its way in though. there's no escaping that.

Anurag said...

You sound like a 70 year old in this post to be honest...

Just try and have a "me" moment in a day and am sure these thoughts won't bother you too much

Like the last line ..that's the way to go :-)

Jingle said...

rest 24 and you may feel better.

hope you well..

End of The Year Awards 4 Friends of Jingle or Jingle Poetry Community

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! xxx

keep up the excellence,

link a poem to our potluck tomorrow, give us the cheers to continue...

Tweety said...

Hope u find it soon..tc

Sharika said...

happy new year... make life an expression of happiness and not pursuit of happiness :)

AbhiLaSH RuHeLa said...

Wow yaar.. u will surely set an example for many.. for me you have already done.

Dishit D said...

living the life to the full gal!- ...now am cringing to go back to college life :)

Siri said...

Just stumbled upon your post while reading your profile on Indiblogger. I am so glad that I did. Lovely post to reaffirm the fact that we have just one life and Live it to the fullest.

Happy 2011.

Siri